03:15/19/07/1990
"Whoever goes to himself risks a confrontation with himself"
C. G. Jung
From an early age, accompanied by systemic psychotherapy and neurofeedback therapy due to aggressive and anxious symptomatology with a family history of depression, violence and alcohol abuse, a character flaw remains in me as I have difficulty in being situated in present time; the pathognomonic symptom of anxiety disorders which I am prone to.
Inspired by the knowledge acquired through years of psychotherapy that explored my sane and insane personality traits, based on past experiences resolutions (or not), dreams and phantasies (not conscious fantasies), 03:15/19/07/1990 emerges and tries to visualize a part of me that I've avoided. For such labour, I consider necessary a very intimate, psychotherapy based approach to my aches, in a cathartic and preventive action on the possibility of developing a mental disorder.
This exploration intends to address the detachment of roles and expectations inherited generationally and unconsciously; the learning process resulting from failed attempts to create stable, lasting, and significant interpersonal bonds; potentially destructive interpersonal relationships and the happiness that the brain associates based on an immediate reward functioning; the constant conflict between libidinal and aggresive drives; and substance abuse as coping behavior in the face of poor emotional management.
Divided into chapters, 03:15/19/07/1990 represents a visual, introspective journey through the struggle towards mental structure. Though numbered, there is really no order.